It is not often that I edit posts, I usually just log in and waffle on but I have rewritten this massive apology three times, I have explained and spelt it out and put up a pretty good argument in my own defence............ but all I really want to say is this.
I really really suck at the whole tags, awards and memes thing. I am sorry.
I mean , it is not that I don't appreciate them. If you have given me award I thank you.
I would have read it and probably got a bit embarrassed and then started to think about who to pass it on to. I would have started to worry about who to include and then worried even more about who leave out. I may have even jotted down a few people only to find out they had already received it last week.
I mean , is it like a birthday party invitation? you know.... like in grade three when the really mean girl who stood on your lunchbox invited you to her party and even though you pretended you were sick and didn't go, your mum still made you invite her to your party in return (not that any mean lunch-box squashers have tagged me of course- just nice bloggy people).
Do I just pass these things on to my real life bloggy friends so they feel obliged to join in?
Is it a huge bloggy faux pas not join in? Will I be struck off the giant nice-bloggers list and put on the naughty list? Will there be coal in my stocking this year because I am so hopeless? Do I appear like a Mrs Big Head if I don't play?
If this is a craft blog (and I use that term loosely) do people really want to know what I had for breakfast or what I was doing twenty years ago ? Could I remember what I was doing twenty years ago?) I can't remember what I did yesterday.
What was I doing twenty years ago?
Miss Eloise and I have been discussing this all morning, and I have to say things got a little heated. I am not proud to admit that I may have actually pointed out to her in a rather unpleasant tone that as she is actually Eloise NO-BLOG she couldn't possibly understand the extreme pressure and stress I am under, and as such had no right to comment !
So Miss Eloise yawned and went off to play with her sequins.....and you what?
When faced with those things bigger than ourselves, the existential thoughts, the big questions of life the universe and blogging, when all our problems seem insurmountable (after 6 nights with very little sleep) and the questions unanswerable......
I think yawning and playing with sequins is as good an answer as any.